6 hours ago
The whole opposite are gorgeous people who have so much knowledge about what I am interested in, but the terms for everything are so "new" that I first have try to connect it with my experiences or sensations or things that I practice inside my head, soul, heart.
Sometimes I feel like a stranger who doesn't speak the language of many humans.
In a direct conversation I am often not shy, i am not insecure, but I feel like many others are stronger in the use of words, during I mostly rely on energy. .
During the oppression of the last years and actuslly many unhappy years before I have lost some ways to feel even more unseen
and lost too much of my intuition, esp the last years, because my head was always so full of unanswered questions of this misery, fears because of unknowledge what's going on. That was a huge problem for me and I still try to find a way to my whole intuition again. To simply 'know' things in a bigger amount again. .
It's not easy to explain so I rarely don't do it. The most people are just laughing, try to make jokes or are bored after a short time.
I am strongly connected to myself, always, mostly to my higher self as well, but as I've have said before, for me it's at normally about souls, energy and maybe this is my problem to find sometines a way in this world full of bodies.
I love this world, I love live, nature and people, but I am mostly more connect with nature as with many people (except those I love or people I know well). .
My lovely daughter has some traits of it as well, but she thinks a bit more in the rationally and "touchable" direction,, but mostly my lovely son.